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“Mindfulness not only makes it possible to survey our internal landscape with compassion and curiosity but can also actively steer us in the right direction for self-care.”
When I first learned about meditation, it was introduced by my college grief counselor. We had spent several sessions talking about my fears and anxieties after losing my dad and how I was having trouble falling asleep, so she emailed me an audio file, and she encouraged me to listen to it as I was getting ready for bed. That night I plugged my headphones into my iPod mini, laid down on my bed, and listened to the 10-minute clip in the darkness.
It started with a woman’s voice speaking slowly and calmly. She instructed me to take three deep breaths. After a few moments of silence, she asked me to draw my attention to my toes and focus on relaxing the muscles while continuing to breathe. After a few moments of focus on my toes, she asked me to draw my attention to my ankles and repeat the same exercise. The voice continued to direct my attention to various parts of my body, all the way up to my head, encouraging deep breaths throughout. By the end of the audio file, I felt more relaxed in my body and my mind, and I was able to fall asleep easily that night.
Meditation comes in many forms. It can be guided or unguided, it can be done walking or seated or lying down, it can be done in a group or on your own. No one approach is better than another—it’s more based on personal preference—but the benefits, especially in grief, are major. This Mayo Clinic article has lots of additional details on the general benefits and different types of meditation, but when it comes to dealing with grief and loss, these are my top reasons:
Help with sleep
A lot of the anxiety I dealt with after my dad’s death peaked when I was getting ready to fall asleep. Suddenly, right as my head hit the pillow, I’d find my thoughts and worries running rampant. Doing meditation right before bed can help your nervous system and brain go into rest mode to better prepare you for sleep. And practicing meditation on a consistent basis can help train your body and brain to access that calm state more easily and frequently throughout the day, which can help prevent the sudden surge of thoughts at night.
Health
I rarely got so much as a cold growing up, but the year after my dad died it seemed like I was sick every other week. Stress can take a toll on your immune system, which can leave you more susceptible to illness. And with grief, especially with anxiety, the stress on your body and nervous system is constant. Your parasympathetic nervous system (rest-and-digest), activated by meditation as well as breathing and other grounding activities, can combat the body’s natural reaction to stress and restore you to a calmer state. Meditation, especially when you’re more prone to stress in a time of loss, can help keep your nervous system from operating in fight-or-flight mode, which wears on the health of your mind and body over time.
The brain-body connection
When we’re stressed, we tend to store tension in our bodies in different ways. Some people are jaw-clenchers, some are shoulder-tensing, a lot of us even store emotion in our hips (it’s a common belief that, dating back to the fetal position, this is our first bodily reaction to stress). Meditation is a great tool to manage the physical symptoms that come along with grief, such as muscle tension, headaches, stomach discomfort, and anxiety-related chest tightness. For me, the guided meditation that focused on areas of the body illuminated where I was storing tension, and it helped me relax and bring more awareness to how I held stress throughout the day.
Existing in the present
When I was in the early days of grief, as I suspect many people can relate to, I spent most of my time thinking about the past, holding onto old memories, wishing I could change things. And when I wasn’t longing for the past, I was worrying about what the future held. Meditation is about focusing on the present moment—what’s here and now. That’s why practices encourage you to focus on your breath or have a mantra you repeat or, in my case with the audio file, focus on relaxing different parts of your body. These methods are meant to bring your attention to things that are tangible with the goal of anchoring you. As hard as it is to acknowledge, we only ever have control over the present moment. This isn’t to say that you shouldn’t think about the past or the future, but meditation helps re-center you when you feel yourself getting swept up.
These are just some of my thoughts around where meditation can be useful in a grieving process. What other benefits have you seen with meditation and grief? I’d love to hear.